yay!!! I finnally got over my 2nd depression crisis. Except I didn't try to kill myself this time, it was more hating the world and wanting to die..... But now I found something to do in my spare time, instead of thinking about how I hate every1, I am now drawing again!! Yay!! and I set up a blog for the 5 pictures I already have done, but my stupid all-in-1 cd labeling scanner faxer doesn't work. Every time I turn it on, it has a mental breakdown and starts beebing, flashing, spitting out blank paper and printing sexy nude models....... And its driving me nuts( except for the last one) so I have to keep it off and use the printer I have from 1999 which barely prints and is extemely noisy!

Now insead of wish evryone in the hallway w/ a gf would get a rm, I have a girl that's I've asked out 3 times and get rejected every time. But that doesn't matter. Cause my life is going on an up.

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well allready knows what im going to sAY...cause......i told her......around valentines day.....and i know what ur thinking and no...nothing else was said!!!:ICONOCHEIA-MASTER: AND:ICONCHRIS-IS-AWSOME: ARE THE SAME FUCKING PERSON!!!! THAT PERSON!!!!! THAT FUCKING PERSON I CHRIS MANZELLA!!!!!! ASSHOLES!!!! I ALREADU\Y HAVE A FUCKING WILL MFOMLADST YEAR BUT I HAVE TO UPDATE IT WITH ALL THE NEW CRAP I HAVE!!!(BUT DONT WORRY; NOT LIKE YOU WOULD EVEN CARE!; I WONT BE COMMITING SUICIDE ANYTIME SOON....POSSIBLY NEVER I HOPE I LIKE LIVING)so shut up... i feel all alone now.... not that i havent since forever... but cause isnt having anymore emo-journals!!! what the fuck...... im totally alone here..... i've been creating different unique personallities, writing letters to ppl who dont exist as i know them and!!!! putting on this emo-fucking cover to freaking stop myself from putting a gun to my head!!!! i dont even own a fucking gun!!! thats the fucking bad part!!! this is not or ever will be a profile for a person named sara sought!!! who lives in ny long island across from my granparents!!!! i fucking lied about everything!!! these stories.... everything on here was created soley and originally by me!!!! type a line from a story in on google if you dont believe me!!! this is the only place you will find this!!!!! hmmm what else can i rant about!!! i sucsesfully chipped all the paint off one of my walls with a knife! i've ripped down the whole side of my closet! smashed a whole in my wall with 3 vitamin waters, cause they kept on breaking open and spraying everywhere!!! carved up my bed with a butcher knife ! almost broke off the door of the shed with a giant log splitting axe!!!! took packs of BIC pens and put the ink all over my door and myself and the clothes i was whearing! jumped over a chair n punched a kid int he face then pushed him into the piano and he fell down.... just for calling me a fruit cake screamed at countless ppl becouse the world is full of fucking assholes who dont even give a shit about me and do everything in their power to piss me off the no end!!!! i take emotion medication that doesn't even fucking work!! they need to jack it up atleast to 2500 mg!!!!! broken all the garage windows !!! slashed all the screens stole over 500 bucks from my mom over the years of adding up the profit!!! ive filled up 50 pages front and back of practical ways of killing my self.... the painfull, the painless..... etc you get the fcking picture!!!! IF YOU WANT TO FUCKING JUDGE ME AND LABEL ME AND FUCKING CALL ME A FREAK WHO NEEDS HELP THEN FINE!!!!!!! KEEP IT IN YOUR OWN DAMN MIND WHILE ITS STILL ATTACHED TO YOUR FUCKING BODY!!!! YOU CAN FUCKING THIK OF ME HOW EVER YOU WANT BUT STILL!!!!KNOWS IM ACRAZIED SYCO-LUNATIC!! AND EVERYTHING ELSE YOU WANT TO CALL ME!!!! BUT SHE STILL THINKS IM A GREAT PERSON!!! A GREAT FUCKING FRIEND!!! THROUGH ALL THE FUCKING LIEY AND SUGAR COVERED FUCKING BLEEDING ARTERIES AND VEINS!!!!! SHE'S STILL MY FUCKING FRIEND AND THATS THE KIND OF PERSON WHO WILL GET MONEY WHEN IM FUCKING FAMOUS!!! THATS WHY SHE FUCKING KNOW MONTHS BEFORE WHEN YOU WERE ALL PLAYING UR LITTLE GAMES OF ....OH.... LETS FUCK W/ THIS OR THAT KID!!!!! AND DO YOU KNOW WHY IMGOING TO BE FAMOUS!!! I GAVE MY 9T GRADDE ENGLISH TEACHER 1 OF MY WRITINGS AND HE SAID IT'S THE SAME THING N MABE EVEN BETTER THAN YOU FIND IN 'THE BOSTON GLOBE' 'THE WALLSTREET JOURNAL'!!!!! SO FUCK YOU EVERY1 WHO'S OUT TO GET ME!!!!! I
LL FUCKING STAB MY HAND THROUGH YOUR FACE!!! CRACK YOUR SKULL AND HAPPILY DRINK YOUR BLOOD FOR FUCKING CHRISTMASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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SO JUDGE ME HOW EVER YOU WANT!!! SO FUCKING GOOD NIGHT!!!!!

if you have nothing nice to say!!!! DONT FUCKING POST IT!!! I WILL RIP YOUR HEAD OF LIKE A FUCKIG SYCOPATH WITH DUAL KATANAS!!!!!!!!!!!! CAPEESH!!

!good!

(IM SRRYBUT I JST HAD TO)

PROCRASTINATION STRIKES AGAIN!!!!!!!!!



yes...well like all procrastinators.....its not done and wont be for some time.....cause the next chapters r longer than my regular 4 pages.....chapter 5 is like 7or8 pages.....so.... yes........and i will be adding some much needed links(for some of you) between stories and sequels....etc...... blah blah.......but... i dont think i'll get to any revisiting from the first set..... cause since now im just saving myself a hole lot of trouble and just spellshecking it before i submit it.....so........ deal with it........

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what the fuck is with this lately?!?!?!?!?!? huh?!? i posted my background on my computer [link] then some guys says it should be posted under 'shots'........'shots' ????? wtf is 'shots' ???!!!!! this is an out rage...then i went to the da homepage... n some guy was getting yelled at for 7 pages about how this artistic nude......wasn't art!!! wtf.....so i stood up for him and posted he shouldn't take these ppl's shit!!!! im so fucking pissed then the same guy that said " i should have posted it under 'shots' .......says if i didnt not make the pic.... i shouldn't have posted it at all!!!! WTF is fucking wrong with these fucking ppl!!!!!! this i an outrage!!!!!AND THEN THIS GUY COMPLAINS ABOUT IT BEING ART JUST NOT GOOD ART!!!! AND da IS TURNING INTO DEVIANTSPACE!!!!! WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK YOu FUCKING RETARDED FUCKER.....!!!!! HE SAYS ITS THE SO DECLINE OF DA!!!!!! SO NOW EVERYTHING HS TO BE GOOD ART?!?!?!?!?! THEN IF ITS NOT GOOD ART.........WHY DID 379 PPL FAV IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HUH!!!!!!!!! HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOW IM JUST SO FUCKING PISSED THAT I WANT TO CRUSH SOMEONE'S SKULL INVARD!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!! ANSWER MY THAT!!! here's the link to the picture w/ 9 pages of complaints [link]
its not like anyone complaining could do a better job!!!! well i have run out of things to rant about.......this so called "bar-sluts vagina".....is only on the FUCKING FRONT PAGE BECASE SO MANY PEOPLE COMMENT ON IT...... I THINK TO GET ON THE FRONT PAGE IT SHOULD TAKE FAVORITES........I MEAN.....ALL THAT GETS YOU ON THE FRONT PAGE UNDER "MOST POPULAR" IS THE # OF FUCKING COMMENTS!!!!! anyone ELSE who feels this way about tthis photo should totaly and completely rant in a reply t this journal........

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and if i didnt put you on here and you are nice.......nuttin personal
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In my opinion the best artist(s) ever n dont make any comment on this until u c thier artwork!!