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Journal Entry: Sun Jul 20, 2008, 8:37 PM
well :icondyingunderurwings:allready knows what im going to sAY...cause......i told her......around valentines day.....and i know what ur thinking and no...nothing else was said!!!:ICONOCHEIA-MASTER: AND:ICONCHRIS-IS-AWSOME: ARE THE SAME FUCKING PERSON!!!! THAT PERSON!!!!! THAT FUCKING PERSON I CHRIS MANZELLA!!!!!! ASSHOLES!!!! I ALREADU\Y HAVE A FUCKING WILL MFOMLADST YEAR BUT I HAVE TO UPDATE IT WITH ALL THE NEW CRAP I HAVE!!!(BUT DONT WORRY; NOT LIKE YOU WOULD EVEN CARE!; I WONT BE COMMITING SUICIDE ANYTIME SOON....POSSIBLY NEVER I HOPE I LIKE LIVING)so shut up... i feel all alone now.... not that i havent since forever... but cause:icongenes-angel: isnt having anymore emo-journals!!! what the fuck...... im totally alone here..... i've been creating different unique personallities, writing letters to ppl who dont exist as i know them and!!!! putting on this emo-fucking cover to freaking stop myself from putting a gun to my head!!!! i dont even own a fucking gun!!! thats the fucking bad part!!! this is not or ever will be a profile for a person named sara sought!!! who lives in ny long island across from my granparents!!!! i fucking lied about everything!!! these stories.... everything on here was created soley and originally by me!!!! type a line from a story in on google if you dont believe me!!! this is the only place you will find this!!!!! hmmm what else can i rant about!!! i sucsesfully chipped all the paint off one of my walls with a knife! i've ripped down the whole side of my closet! smashed a whole in my wall with 3 vitamin waters, cause they kept on breaking open and spraying everywhere!!! carved up my bed with a butcher knife ! almost broke off the door of the shed with a giant log splitting axe!!!! took packs of BIC pens and put the ink all over my door and myself and the clothes i was whearing! jumped over a chair n punched a kid int he face then pushed him into the piano and he fell down.... just for calling me a fruit cake screamed at countless ppl becouse the world is full of fucking assholes who dont even give a shit about me and do everything in their power to piss me off the no end!!!! i take emotion medication that doesn't even fucking work!! they need to jack it up atleast to 2500 mg!!!!! broken all the garage windows !!! slashed all the screens stole over 500 bucks from my mom over the years of adding up the profit!!! ive filled up 50 pages front and back of practical ways of killing my self.... the painfull, the painless..... etc you get the fcking picture!!!! IF YOU WANT TO FUCKING JUDGE ME AND LABEL ME AND FUCKING CALL ME A FREAK WHO NEEDS HELP THEN FINE!!!!!!! KEEP IT IN YOUR OWN DAMN MIND WHILE ITS STILL ATTACHED TO YOUR FUCKING BODY!!!! YOU CAN FUCKING THIK OF ME HOW EVER YOU WANT BUT STILL!!!!:icondyingunderurwings:KNOWS IM ACRAZIED SYCO-LUNATIC!! AND EVERYTHING ELSE YOU WANT TO CALL ME!!!! BUT SHE STILL THINKS IM A GREAT PERSON!!! A GREAT FUCKING FRIEND!!! THROUGH ALL THE FUCKING LIEY AND SUGAR COVERED FUCKING BLEEDING ARTERIES AND VEINS!!!!! SHE'S STILL MY FUCKING FRIEND AND THATS THE KIND OF PERSON WHO WILL GET MONEY WHEN IM FUCKING FAMOUS!!! THATS WHY SHE FUCKING KNOW MONTHS BEFORE WHEN YOU WERE ALL PLAYING UR LITTLE GAMES OF ....OH.... LETS FUCK W/ THIS OR THAT KID!!!!! AND DO YOU KNOW WHY IMGOING TO BE FAMOUS!!! I GAVE MY 9T GRADDE ENGLISH TEACHER 1 OF MY WRITINGS AND HE SAID IT'S THE SAME THING N MABE EVEN BETTER THAN YOU FIND IN 'THE BOSTON GLOBE' 'THE WALLSTREET JOURNAL'!!!!! SO FUCK YOU EVERY1 WHO'S OUT TO GET ME!!!!! I
LL FUCKING STAB MY HAND THROUGH YOUR FACE!!! CRACK YOUR SKULL AND HAPPILY DRINK YOUR BLOOD FOR FUCKING CHRISTMASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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SO JUDGE ME HOW EVER YOU WANT!!! SO FUCKING GOOD NIGHT!!!!!

if you have nothing nice to say!!!! DONT FUCKING POST IT!!! I WILL RIP YOUR HEAD OF LIKE A FUCKIG SYCOPATH WITH DUAL KATANAS!!!!!!!!!!!! CAPEESH!!

!good!

(IM SRRY:icondyingunderurwings:BUT I JST HAD TO)

  • Mood: Hysterical
  • Listening to: THE SOUND OF MY SCREAMING
  • Reading: MY FUCKIKNG WILL OVER
  • Watching: MYSELF CRY THESE FUCKING TEARS OF PAIN
  • Playing: HOW TO KILL MYSELF
  • Eating: NOTHING IN 2 N A HALF DAYS
  • Drinking: GAL O MILK, WATERMELON, AND CHUCK NORISS' BLOOD

Devious Information

  • Current Residence: in chris' hell hole of doom
  • Interests: chris!!!!!
  • Favourite movie: oh my goddess the movie 1 and 2
  • Favourite band or musician: green day, blink 182, linkin park, my chemical romance, rob zombie, papa roach, fallout boy etc.
  • Favourite genre of music: metal
  • Favourite artist: teru-chan and djblade8
  • Favourite poet or writer: me chris taylor n sabrina
  • Favourite photographer: i dunno
  • Favourite style of art: any kind
  • Operating System: ailen ware
  • MP3 player of choice: ipod
  • Shell of choice: none...there heavy
  • Wallpaper of choice: chris.....yay
  • Skin of choice: chris'
  • Favourite game: besides chris................master of the skies
  • Favourite gaming platform: xbox, xbox 360, gamecube, ps2
  • Favourite cartoon character: i dunno........
  • Personal Quote: when people ask me what i have a problem with.... my answer.......
  • Tools of the Trade: ur moms a highway...i wanna ride her all night long

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~chris-is-awsome:iconchris-is-awsome: 2 days 8 hours ago
like i said im srry... but im glad to no that some1 else than:icondyingunderurwings: reads my journals

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92% of the teen population would be dead if Abercrombie and Fitch or Hollister said it wasn't cool to breathe anymore. Put this in your signature if you're one

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*darklight-ravager:icondarklight-ravager: 2 days 23 hours ago
its not sympathy, but you can take it or leave it. Just trying to help out a fellow human that was in a similar situation to myself. but whatever.

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-It\'s Better to Die Standing than to Live on Your Knees -Ernesto \"Che\" Guevarra
:glomp:Wishin for Pechan:glomp:
~chris-is-awsome:iconchris-is-awsome: 3 days 1 hour ago Mood: Homicidal
srry but i dont need ur fucking sympathy.... i have a friend who makes scars up and down his arms w/ erasers but every1 still says i need help!!!!!

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92% of the teen population would be dead if Abercrombie and Fitch or Hollister said it wasn't cool to breathe anymore. Put this in your signature if you're one

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*darklight-ravager:icondarklight-ravager: 3 days 5 hours ago
thanks for the fav! Just to let you know, no matter what if feels like, no matter how dark it gets, you are never alone. amd death is never the way. trust me. i've been to a similar place, holding the blade milimeters away from my carotid artery. I know how it is. Trust me, the death train is not one you wanna get on, i've seen the other side several times. you don't wanna go to the place i've seen.

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-It\'s Better to Die Standing than to Live on Your Knees -Ernesto \"Che\" Guevarra
:glomp:Wishin for Pechan:glomp:
*megoomba:iconmegoomba: Jun 7, 2008, 8:25:01 AM
Thanks so much for the +favs!!

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~Astrial:iconAstrial: Jun 6, 2008, 3:09:09 PM
ty for the fav ^^
=ChrissieCool:iconChrissieCool: Jun 6, 2008, 12:49:10 PM
Thanks ever so much for the :+fav::hug:
~Cahriiana:iconCahriiana: Jun 6, 2008, 12:43:43 PM
Thank You for the fave


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*TheRictus:iconTheRictus: Jun 6, 2008, 12:30:03 PM
Thanks for the fave :)

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Have a mouth as sharp as a dagger but a heart as soft as tofu
*erlondeiel:iconerlondeiel: May 23, 2008, 8:55:55 PM
Thanks for liking the pic!!!!:):)

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My vault has opened
here you see my scattered mind
binding with my soul.

You know I exist...
Lingering where the winds die
following my road.
*erlondeiel:iconerlondeiel: May 2, 2008, 8:55:15 PM
Thanks for all the :+favs:! Best wishes!!!

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My vault has opened
here you see my scattered mind
binding with my soul.

You know I exist...
Lingering where the winds die
following my road.
*Genes-Angel:iconGenes-Angel: May 2, 2008, 3:27:41 PM
Thanks again <3

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:star: My brain has stopped :star:

:blackrose: If I held out my hand would you take it?
If you took it would you ever let go? :blackrose:
*Genes-Angel:iconGenes-Angel: Apr 7, 2008, 2:36:16 PM
Thanks for the fave babe *snuggles* I just read your journal, sorry to hear aout people being knobhead >: *gives lots of loves* Ignore them, they fail to recognise talent

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:star: My brain has stopped :star:

:blackrose: If I held out my hand would you take it?
If you took it would you ever let go? :blackrose:
*bells5r:iconbells5r: Mar 30, 2008, 5:59:32 PM
Thank you for the fav.
*megoomba:iconmegoomba: Jan 24, 2008, 8:01:43 PM
Thanks so much for the +fav!!

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*megoomba:iconmegoomba: Aug 19, 2007, 8:14:03 AM
Thanks so much for the +fav!!

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*nosyd:iconnosyd: Aug 16, 2007, 1:27:16 AM
thanks for the fave!

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yellow highlighter is an excellent source of vitamin c
*megoomba:iconmegoomba: Aug 3, 2007, 1:35:25 PM
Thanks so much for the +fav!!

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~elvereth:iconelvereth: Jun 16, 2007, 12:25:27 PM Mood: Affection
Thank you for the fave A_A
~mastergohan:iconmastergohan: Jun 10, 2007, 6:07:59 PM
When was the last time I gave you bs? O_o;;;
*megoomba:iconmegoomba: May 15, 2007, 8:03:25 AM
Thanks so much for the +fav!!

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~Beckieflitz:iconBeckieflitz: May 12, 2007, 8:28:15 AM
Thanks for the fave. xx

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The Scrawlings Of An Idiot :boing:
I will eat you with my manliness.
*megoomba:iconmegoomba: Apr 28, 2007, 11:06:22 PM
Thanks so much for the +fav!!

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